8:10 PM | Thursday, December 15, 2011
go back to the past
quietly wishing things will be like before. all the if only thoughts can keep coming,but thoughts are just thoughts. if only the thoughts happened in reality. sometimes i wonder why didn't i pushed it harder to make all this not possible anymore. it's like really back to square one. like everything gotta start all over again. promises are back to empty,half-fulfilled again. really wished i didn't see all the things i didn't want to see. hate this part,re-building.
10:18 PM | Wednesday, December 14, 2011
square one
It's been a while hey. don't even know whose reading the blog already anyway!life's been real good so far,but nevertheless there's still low points.maybe let's talk about today,was pretty excited. all ready to start the life again,and probably high hopes and expectations,it's a contradict to whatever it was said on the recording. at first,it might seems great. but i would say things are back to square one hey. it's time for i think the most suitable word to use in this situation,rebuilding once again i guess. probably it will take a while. but will see how it goes for the next one week or so. hah. life's really like a roller coaster. 360 deg turn? probably. 2011's ending. 2012 is coming,i so wish it could be a year of goodnessonce again. i wish for a getaway. make it a NEED.
12:15 PM | Saturday, August 21, 2010
another fast week.
another week has past. means 1 week of YOG has past. cool.
hasn't been studying much this week. tests are coming up. zzz.
wed-met up with sheryl siow,went to SSC to get some stuffs. had lunch there. webcam with dumbdumb. headed for lifegroup at church basement,dinner at al-ameen. having lifegroup after 2 weeks of not having,is so good!
thurs-met up with gary,jon,ivan,darryl,shaun,yank and kristin. studied a little at cathay's starbucks. had dinner at pearl centre,wanton mee. caught step up 3 after that. AWESOME. really good show. monodeal at dhoby park after that.
friday-went to sengkang stadium to watch YOG hockey! finally caught a glimpse of the boys games. singapore played super good last night against pakistan!!! even though they lost. haha.
so today,church! can't wait for service. pastor gonna start on new series,want to hear it! :) can't wait can't wait!!! woohoo. can't wait for all this exams to end. so mum would stop nagging for me to study. zzzzzz.
let go,let God.
1:56 AM | Wednesday, August 18, 2010
time is key.
why am i feeling sad all over againnn.
RAHHH.
1:36 AM |
birthday
18th birthday's over! yayyyy. had a great one with good company! :)
met up with sirbest,abby,spanks,don,darren and phillip for lunch at holland v's everything with fries. food was okayokay,but the company was good. haha.
monodeal after that at starbucks. great time of fun! 3 hours spent there playing!
cabbed down to city hall after that for dinner at shokudu with jer,jy,wh,jude,glenden,meng,nick,clarice and sheryl sng!
food was great. company was even better! hahaha.
they surprised me with the cake!!! hahaha. and thanks for the present guys! :)
played pool and marina square after that,took some photos! yayyy. it was just an awesome 18th :)
tml morning,accompanying sheryl siow to SSC. and she wants to pass me cake. haha. life group at night.
really gotta move on and focus on my studies. i just can't take it that i can't study. something's bothers whenever i study. sucks. gotta stop thinking about all those stuffs. single isn't that bad. but thanks for being so nice to meee. at least you tell me your situations and stuffs,totally understand. time to get ready for some revision.
12:09 PM | Monday, August 16, 2010
complicated.
last week of sch,just didn't end that well. only my classmates who turn up will know.
wed-sch was indeed bored and to think we have to end at 5 again. it very much sucks.
thurs-was looking forward to the end of sch. cause finally i could play floorball. went swimming during the 3 hour break. tanned! floorball was even better,funnn. kallang airport hawker for dinner! rushed assignments and presentation slides till 3!!!
fri-iss and care was bullshit lessons. cms presentation was good! i think i did well,went pass 5 mins,even though i had actually the least to say! thank God! street soccer at night. :)
sat-church. God is good,all the time.
sun-field soccer in the morning. played keeper! was really fun and good. but due to my height,hahaha. okayyy,dinner at jalan kayu with ivan,jon,gary,darryl,yank,youlim and kristin. monodeal after that!
YOG hockey today! yay. with jer,jy and vic. but it's girls match! dinner at sakura with the family for my bday :) can't believe tomorrow's my bday already. 18 years of life,well it just went pass so fast. and the blink of an eye,i think when i'm 19,i would be shocked that 18 pass by so fast.
i tried,but it doesn't seems to go away. that recent picture of you,you smiled so nicely. i want to wait for the next few nights,even if it's gonna be longer or later than usual,i'll just wait. even if i don't intend to talk to you,i'll just wait.
10:00 PM | Wednesday, August 11, 2010
no more.
it's time i should tell myself to really stop and don't keep going back in.
there's no way i could ever get in and come out smiling happy anymore.
1:04 AM |
time machine.
had a great day on national day! overslept and miss prayer meeting.
had dimsum for brunch with the family.
and met up with jer,vic,meng,clarice and sheryl for fireworks!
short,but it was really greatttttt. had fun,hehe.
walked over to dhoby for rochor tau huey,yumyum before heading home.
back to school. first lesson was like less than half a class. very uncommon.
haha. school was as usual,mundane. but left during OFA.
caught SALT just now,with jer vic wanhao and jude.
superb show,quite easy to understand actually! SALT 2 is confirm will come out.
can't wait for this week to end. but friday got so many things dueee.
BEV assignment,CMS presentation and maybe ISS short presentation.
but on a positive note,thursday floorball with P9 at valhall. finally!
and soccer on friday with the usuals,gonna be funfunfun!
glad that you're happy. i'm happy. let's continue on now. maybe we should stay this way now. hope you like what i made!
1:10 AM | Monday, August 09, 2010
takes time to change.
church was great yesterday. praise and worship was so good!
praise report was timely. as long as we keep praying,God will be there for us.
even though there's still no answer,we just gotta keep praying.
God is just waiting for the right moment to step in and takeover. didn't went to my relative's house for dinner,instead went to lot 1 with lifegroup for dinner at kfc!
hahaha. we made so much noise but it was fun playing monodeal and another card game!
as for today,cut hair in the morning. spent like 3 hours there.
met up with yongsiong,jelicia and huijuan for lunch at arnold.
it was good,seriously. years since i last had it!
cabbed down to school for YOG event! woohoo.
seriously,one of the most fun event that i've taken part in!
even though,it's just standing around the track,seeing the torch passby.
it was the bonding time with the classmates,from the start to the end.
can tell that our class so much more bonded already mannn! woohoo.
went to simpang bedok for dinner,nasi pattaya. yumyum.
but still prefer AL-AMEEN's one. which is near church's one!!!
national day!!! HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :)
fireworks tomorrow!
it's always hard moving on just like that. but of course,sometimes i just can't help it,but just think and it's always painful when missing. time is the word i guess. only time can take all this away. it's just day one. i'm sure,slowly slowly,everything will go away. just gotta live life the hard way sometimes. just have to live and learn with it.